Pigeons versus Sparrows

I want to die
but as my grandfather used to say:
"you will only die when you are happy".
The sparrows are eaten by the pigeons
and the pigeons are feed by an annoying old lady.
If only I was granted to sip my beer in peace,
but she keeps feeding them with stale bread and sorrow.
The love that I long for is not longer sold in Tesco´s,
and hasn´t been replacement ever since.